| So it's been awhile my dear. Missed me? |
[28 Sep 2008|10:10pm] |
So I'd say it's been around two years since i've updated my Livejournal. That's quite a long time my loves. and I don't think I have much to say now.
I love my Harlie J. Boucher the 4th thank you. Wooooooooo...... 2 years in 2 weeks WOOT!
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| Lovely Ladies |
[31 Jul 2006|09:49pm] |
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I'm upset. I basically just got a car that I didn't choose and I didn't really want but my parents were all like "it's good cuz we know who owned it first" and "It's a nice car, it'll last a long time." I think it looks ugly actually. I want a nice looking car. A sleek looking car. I'd love that mustang for three thousand but no i get a car for forty five hundred. But i guess it'll be better on gas milage and such. But i really wanted that sunfire. It looked nice and it's said to have good gas milage and all that. but no I got this. and I don't even have it yet...Damnit...I hate this. I've never gotten to pick my own damn car. I basically get whatever my dad finds because they think it's best for me. I don't get a fucking choice basically. I hate it. Somebody shoot me please....I want my own damn car. Not this fucking car. When i get this all paid for i'm going to sell it and buy a car that I want. Though I'd rather have the car I want now. because this car isn't me at all I hate it. Shoot me...I hate having no say in the matter because they don't want to drag me about for a few more days...I hate that...
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| I feel Giddy and Girly And ...awwwww |
[28 Jul 2006|09:40pm] |
I like this guy. He's a few years older than me. He's cute TALL and seems like such a freaking sweetheart. And I dunno. I don't know him that well but I'd love to. I just don't know since he's 23 and i'm 18 makes me wonder if he'd even be interested in me. I'm just cutting myself short now arn't I. I might have a chance if I tried...But there's the thing I'm slightly afraid to even try. oh dear....
I want that Sunfire at Cioni's though Some other girl is looking at it tomorrow and if it's gone then she got it and i'm sad. OTHERWISE it most likely will be MINE! lol LOVE YA!
Lauren
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| mathematics for my brain |
[29 Jun 2006|01:15pm] |
me=single
me also=sad
me also also=fulltimejobatwalgreens
me also also also=quitpizzahut(twoweeksputin)
and that's all
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| I love you! |
[13 Jun 2006|09:56pm] |
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i think i really care for my boyfriend a lot. I mean come on. he gave me a ring and i stayed the night at his house last night. It was awesome. I got there around five i wanna say. We hung out tried to take a nap failed lol. then he gave me the GRAND TOUR! lol. It was awesome. His dad's a funny guy. Almost hit me with a shoe. ACCIDENT! total accident. we had pizza last night and then this morning tried to get him up nice and early so he could make it to school. and then i slept in til around one. woke up got dressed brushed my teeth and started drawing in one of his sketch books. and not shortly after he got back comes downstairs talks to me for a bit and then goes "oh yeah, Nick's here." OKAY! thanks for warning me. lol Well then we went to the grocery store so they could buy stuff for dinner and they made dinner and it was gooooooood. Yeah he got high a couple times while i was there. the first time i didn't really notice cuz i was upstairs and he was downstairs in his room and i was drawing and went down there and they were my geez...i dunno lol. Then i was down there with them and they started smoking and i'm just like uuuugghhhhh no so i went upstairs and came back later. Well. Yeah i had a wonderful time. I still wish he didn't smoke but he does and oh well. I like him a lot and i'm not going to try to change him. If he cares about me he might eventually give it up. But right now I'm not going to try to change it because it doesn't bug me to the point that i feel uncomfortable or forced to do anything I dunno. I guess it's just something i'm dealing with. and this ring is really really pretty. I love it.
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[15 Apr 2006|11:11pm] |
oh god i was so embarrassed at work today. So this guy Kyle use to work at pizza hut with me for like two months then he left for school and his bday is in like forty minutes but that's not the point the point is he found my myspace and i told him he looked familiar and he's like you do too and we got to the point where we realized we worked together for a little while. so we started messaging and he called me last night around midnight and we talkd for about an hour and forty five minutes. and it was a good conversation lol. And he was home for the weekend and we decided to meet up between my shifts today. So i went to work this morning and i go to melissa and say hey guess what i'm doin on my break she's like what and i said i'm going to hang with kyle and she got all smiley she's like yeah he called me and wanted to know some stuff about you and i laughed. lol. and then when i went off tables apparently she called him up and told him and he came over to pizza hut it was hilarious he got there and i'm like wait what are you doing here and he's like melissa told me you were off tables and i just smiled. I swear she'd try to hook us up lol. and i was apparently as red as the shirt i was wearing lol. I just could not stop smiling. Seriously. So we went to his house and he made lunch and it was amazing and we started watching kung pow and i got a call from my aunt in the middle of it cuz she needed me for my dress so i went home. and i was saddened by that cuz i wanted to stay and hang out with kyle longer...but it's alright. And then i went back to work and mary jo says so whered you go with kyle and i told her she's like ooh what he make you for lunch. and Amy later said i didn't know you had a lunch date with kyle and i just smiled basically. Yeah...I love it. lol i kinda like kyle but i'm not gonna think to much into it.
Love ya but i gotta go.
Lauren
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| Time flys faster than you think.. |
[12 Apr 2006|10:38pm] |
So. I've been single for about three months now. It's been a good time for the most part.
I'm not completely complaining. It's given me time to realize things and finish other things. I've had a good time figuring out what i want and getting stuff done and have just that much less stress to worry about. Though i've had my share of stresses and being jipped and shit but it's alright. I'm okay...For now...well tonight i got really depressed again and just wanted to cry. But I didn't. And I'm hoping i don't. Kind of want to call Randy. This guy from myspace. He messaged me one day and we started talking. Then we started calling and i went to mendota the other day and met him. He's a lot shorter than i thought. But damn he's strong and he's pretty good looking (to me at least) but he does pot which i don't like. At all pretty much. So i don't know if i'd ever get into something with him because of that. It's something I'd rather not be near ever. I'm not sure. I'm never sure. I'll finish out the school year then decided what i want to do. I've got three or four important dates ahead of me. maybe five. April 22nd is the 24 hour scavanger hunt april 29th is prom may 2 is my meeting with the counselor at ivcc. and may 25 is my hair cut and dye job and may 26th I graduate. I'll no longer be a high school student. I'm excited. Thank the lord. lol. Here we go. I'm done tonight. Thanks..
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[21 Jan 2006|03:01pm] |
Hey all...Single now. Yeah. I took it a lot better than i figured I would. But it still hurts a lot. But i'll be alright. I got two parts in the contest play i have to memorize the monologue isn't that bad. The other part i don't really have too long of lines so it's alright. I'm Jenny and Deana in ...And Stuff... It'll be a good play. Lots of rookies though. Then HONK! tryouts are the 30th and the 2nd...so I'll be having fun with that. Hopefully I get penny or queenie...though this year it's different i guess. We're not trying out for parts or learning a certain song. This year we sing something familiar (i.e. star spangled banner or america the beautiful) and then a sight reading song. then we'll act out some parts...i need to read the script first. I don't know what this story is like at all..yeah....Well...Okay...I guess I'm just trying to make myself as busy as possible so i won't have to worry about anything. I'll have two play practices work school and i'll just keep myself as busy as possible. If i don't have time to stop and think then i won't hurt. ya know? yeah but i'm alright. I'm still in a good mood i guess...i don't know....
but Yeah. I'm excited about sweetheart. Matt Chasteen said he'd go with me when Chad refused then chad broke up with me so yeah...I dunno...life kinda sucks..but i'm livin...i get good grades i've been on high honor roll all year and it's just so easy this year...i'm still waiting to join nhs though. But who knows if that'll happen since i don't participate in sports so apparently i don't do anything even though i participate in pretty much every play through all four years of high school. argh...life is just kinda boring....whatever...
I love you all
lauren
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| hey ho who wouldn't go! |
[25 Dec 2005|04:41pm] |
I've had a wonderful christmas. Got lots of goodies...
I got in my stocking...
Mean Girls
The first three harry potter books
m&m's
a picture frame
a tetris game plug in tv thing...
cards
underwear
shirt
other things that
Presents were...
This lap top that I'm using to type this lovely list up...
A printer to go with my lap top
A new tv (that doesn't work)
oh yeah a blanket too.
and i think that might be it...damnit...
I love my stuff other than the broken tv...it sucks...lol.
Yeah I'm good
LOVE YOU CHAD!
Lauren
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| Rejected... |
[13 Dec 2005|09:52pm] |
you would think I'd be use to rejection...well i am use to it if it comes from a man. But a college...wow...my first choice college rejected me...at least that's what i understand from this shitastic internet application check up shit...yeah..FUCK THAT SHIT! Guess who's going to be stuck going to IVCC next year..you guessed it ME! though i was accpeted to two college, one that gave me a $40,000 scholarship for four years of college there...only problem, they don't really have what I'm interested in and if i go there then i can't really back out until four years is up...and IV is cheap...but I don't really want to go there and I definately don't want to stay living at home though it'd be much cheaper on me and my parents. I just don't want to feel like my mother is trying to control my life because she would. she still trys to make me go to sleep early. I'm eighteen and she's not letting me make my own mistakes and decisions....argh.....
thought it was nothing turns out it's something...
God..I need some good relaxation...good thing Justin is comin home this weekend and is going to make me relax lol. according to him at least lol..man i havn't seen him since june...wow...long time...
I haven't drank since new years...is that good?
I'm sore and a master at procrastination. guess that's why i didn't get in...oh fucking well...maybe i'll just become an electrical engineer because that sounds pretty cool and i always enjoyed playing with wires and shit...easy and fun....good chance at shocking myself also sooooo...LET'S DO IT! that or something artsy..because i'm artsy-like...I'm just gonna go to IV and move into an apartment somewhere in peru or spring valley maybe granville...i dunno...I give up...
i should go write those ten pages for those ten articles...due tomorrow....Wow i'm just a lazy fat ass....
as the depression sets in.
I'll always remain,
Lauren
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| Updates of the First Kind |
[14 Nov 2005|10:56pm] |
So me and chad are fine now. He even said he loves me and actually means it. It makes me happy. Matt likes me...like hardcore likes me. Like he's called me beautiful about eight times every day for the past like four days. Yeah. Flirts like crazy too. OH WELL!
I got a new picture for LJ. Thought it was well needed. The one i had was really old like..yeah....
I'm cold and should try to let sleep take hold...though i work better with less sleep. I also get yelled at for that.
He has an hour. Or he's missed a day. YEAH!
lol
Going now
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| i needed this conversation. Amber helps me... |
[04 Nov 2005|11:47pm] |
AgelessMisery: what was that? didn't get the last message
BrokenPieces79: i said i think you should just talk with chads mom
AgelessMisery: i probably should
AgelessMisery: but then you know what it'll probably end up being chad is really the one who wants to end it not his mom and i'll cry more
AgelessMisery: i feel like i'm going to end up crying no matter what...
AgelessMisery: again
BrokenPieces79: well if chads lieing then you don't need to be with him
AgelessMisery: i know...but still...i like him a lot...and it's hard...
BrokenPieces79: i kno
AgelessMisery: but i'm leaving this decision to him. it was his choice to ask me back out so it's his choice to end it.
AgelessMisery: again
BrokenPieces79: true, but you don't need to let yourself get treated bad
AgelessMisery: but that's the thing he doesn't really treat me bad
AgelessMisery: in person he's the sweetest thing
AgelessMisery: and we don't talk as much but that'll change maybe...i don't know...maybe i'm just trying to convince myself
AgelessMisery: that he wants me
AgelessMisery: because it's what i want so bad...
BrokenPieces79: i dont know how you are together, but you both seemed happy at sadie
AgelessMisery: we were
AgelessMisery: he even admitted it was a great time
AgelessMisery: and then the next day he broke up with me
AgelessMisery: i cried so much and then didn't sleep pretty much at all because of it
AgelessMisery: and i could barely look at him the next day because it made me want to cry
BrokenPieces79: my brother told me, that chad told him, he only broke up with you because of his mom
AgelessMisery: but sinc ei was so exhausted everything rolled off of me...but the next day it hit me hard....
AgelessMisery: yeah that's what shawn told me too
AgelessMisery: and that's what chad told me
AgelessMisery: and that's what kate told me
AgelessMisery: and jimbo
AgelessMisery: and pretty much everybody
BrokenPieces79: i don't think hes lieing
AgelessMisery: and i hate that...i don't like this at all...
AgelessMisery: i don't understand what's so wrong with me...
BrokenPieces79: nothing
AgelessMisery: You should be happy to be turning 18 but i'm not...not at all
BrokenPieces79: the feeling i get is that everything will turn out fine
BrokenPieces79: i tihnk his mom will get over it
AgelessMisery: I hope so...I just feel like i should talk to his mom...yeah...well she hasn't yet so i doubt it
AgelessMisery: it took him a month and a half to actually listen to her
AgelessMisery: but he's afraid she'll actually do something about it when i turn 18
AgelessMisery: I'm gonna cry
BrokenPieces79: i doubt it
AgelessMisery: i don't
AgelessMisery: from what i hear
BrokenPieces79: unless they prove your having sex she has nothing to charge you with
AgelessMisery: i know that
AgelessMisery: but still...it hurts
BrokenPieces79: and if your not, theres nothing to worry about
AgelessMisery: we arn't and i don't want to because i love the innocence in our relationship. we have a good time without it
AgelessMisery: we don't need to have sex to be together...
AgelessMisery: and i guess that's why i like him so much is that i don't feel like that's the only reason he's with me...
AgelessMisery: unlike with so many other relationships i've been in
BrokenPieces79: thats good
BrokenPieces79: really good
BrokenPieces79: you need something like that
AgelessMisery: i know and that's why it's hurting so bad to lose it
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| don't cry for him...he's not worth it any longer |
[30 Oct 2005|11:57pm] |
Somebody tell me why i have to feel the pain. I fucking like him and he doesn't like me as much as he says he did.
I hate it.
he just said he loved me...but no, he broke up with me. WTF! and why don't you just come out and fucking say it. Don't tell me you like other ppl. Don't tell me i'm going to cry from what you have to say
DON'T tell me to hold on. To hold on so you can find the words to hurt me. The words to make me cry. You know they will. This sharp stab to the heart. Don't make it last any longer than it needs to. Just get it done and over with. You plan on doing it anyway so just do it already. And now that you've done it. LIVE WITH IT! It was your choice. Nobody made this decision but you. There is no one to blame but you. You feel the pain of hurting someone you said you cared about. You take that. You should be the one who feels bad. Not me...but I feel horrible. I feel beyond saving. I hate the fact I still want to want you. I still want to be with you. I still want to see you up close...I still want you...I can't stand it...
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[27 Oct 2005|09:51pm] |
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i wish that my boyfriend would want to actually hang out with me more without his friends there. I mean sometimes i feel like he avoids it. on purpose..grrr. I just really want to see him outside of school alone. Tomorrow he's going to go see Saw II without me because i have to work. He invited me and i was all jacked cuz i was gonna go then i remembered i had to close at pizza hut...So I'm bummed about that. BUT sadie is saturday and i have the entire day off. yaY for that and several hours with my bf...YaY!
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[25 Oct 2005|08:57pm] |
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Life is against me right now...
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[22 Oct 2005|10:56pm] |
This morning i got my pictures in late and the judge decided to be a bitch and not except them. They are still displayed but not with ribbions so i feel like shit because my pictures are so much cooler than so many others...argh...
Work...then i left...went to mall called Chad...STOLE CHAD AWAY!
I totally got him out of his house. I was amazed his mom let him go. I was completely elated. lol. It was only between shift though for me. Which was fine. We got out shirts. Went to spencer's got the Support local music sleep with a musician. lol yeah i like it. Especially since he plays guitar and i sing.. hahahahahha..I'm funny...but not.. lol. SO we hung out (by the way he bought my shirt which i thought was really sweet since i could have bought it myself) it was fun. We kissed and actted all cute and shit. God i like that boy lol. I really do. We havn't ever fooled around. but we've only been together for like a month or more actually but yeah not too long but he's sweet. I like him...I'm such a geek. lol. Seriously, I think about him so much. Like if i think this boy is cute i'm just like, he's not as cute as chad and I'd rather be with chad and shit and AHHHH just do it...just say it...ALL TOGETHER NOW! "awwwwww" yeah that's right....I'll stop now you don't wanna hear it...I'm just repeating myself anyway lol...awwwww
Work again...after chad, that sucked. Oh well. I got about eighty bucks for the entire day. Oh well. Pretty good I guess. Tomorrow I get to work from noon til nine. So my life will suck. Especially since sunday usually is pretty busy...crap....
I got a new cd...it was fun...Yeah...I want straylight run and maybe something else....
LOVE YOU!
Lauren
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| LJ Trick or Treat! |
[19 Oct 2005|07:28pm] |
| My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul |
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| Arsenicemotions goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Dead Angel. | | mylegitches gives you 7 milky white root beer-flavoured gummy worms. | | ofgoodandevil gives you 12 red-orange vanilla-flavoured gummy worms. | | pianohands11 tricks you! You get a used tissue. | | t1bandme gives you 19 dark green grapefruit-flavoured gummy bats. | | thelifeofasheep gives you 17 softly glowing blueberry-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. | | thisismynewname gives you 17 dark blue licorice-flavoured jawbreakers. | | ttragickingdom gives you 15 yellow peach-flavoured wafers. | | xxsignoffxx tricks you! You lose 21 pieces of candy! | | yercole gives you 4 light blue coffee-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. | | yzy_rachie_yzy tricks you! You lose 43 pieces of candy! | | Arsenicemotions ends up with 27 pieces of candy, and a used tissue. | | Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. |
I totally had a shit load of food and you people stole it...rather steph, amber, and rachel did. Rachel was the biggest theif.
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[16 Oct 2005|09:55pm] |
I haven't really eaten anything today...we'll leave it like that.
I'm sick...it's sad.
I definately have a date to sadie now...I'm ecstatic.
I had a lovely 23 minute phone call today. It just made my day so much better.
I worked all day all weekend everyday. It sucked. I was sick. And today tips sucked. I believe it was about fifty bucks for the entire day. About the same crappy tips as yesterday. It sucked. and Friday i didn't wait so it sucked...Yep SUCKED!
I love Chim...
These boys came to pizza hut and they were emo like and cute and interesting and friends with nathan (one of the new cooks) and I got to wait on them. There were six of them, they all got mountain dew and were stealing each others drinks because one had less ice than another or whatever and the ordered four pizzas, then the got three rounds of drinks, and were quite interesting people to say the least. Then they had four other friends stop in and join them for a little while, then one of the guys who joined them decided to take a glass and leave with it when everybody was leaving. So I follow them outside and say "hey can I have that glass back. You're not supposed to leave with those actually." and He's all "but I want the soda" So i'm all "well I'll get you a to go cup that you can take." He says "alright" so we're walkin back in and he's all like "I'da hooked you up, cleaned it and returned it." I'm all "that's alright we have a dishwasher to do that" THen i give him his to go cup of dew and he says "wow...you rock..."Or something like that. So basically it was a good time and emo boys make me happy. Yep..
Which reminds me Nathan owes me some cool guitar picks...yep...Owes me...
Love ya,
Lauren
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[06 Oct 2005|09:54pm] |
It's fairly impossible to buy a birthday present for somebody who won't tell you what they what. I keep asking Chad what he wants for his birthday since it's MONDAY! and HE WON'T TELL ME! I have not freaking Idea what to get him. AND HE DIDN'T HELP ME WHATSOEVER! I seriously don't know. I'm probably gonna end up giving him a gift certificate for the mall or something. Maybe just Money. I really don't know. OR I'll TRY my darndest to find a way to steal him away next week to get his present. MOST likely will be belated but I HAVE MONEY and I WANT TO SPEND IT ON HIM! Wish he'd freaking tell me what he wants ARGH!...Stinky boys. I LIKE KISSING HIM THOUGH! It's a fun time...he's good at kissing. WISH I COULD KISS HIM MORE!!! ARGH!!!! Grr for bad grades and grounding....He better be ungrounded for Sadie or I might just cry. I've been looking forward to this for so long and this is sad....He better be able to go or I'll have to see if Bryan doesn't have a date because I don't want to go solo again. That wasn't cool. Yeah...well I'm going now...
I really miss chad already. I don't get to him for four days or even see him...This bites
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